Wow. It's been almost 3 years since my last journal entry, Prolly just as long since I visited here. Been alot of shit going on in the last 3 years: losing a job of 18 years, which the last 3 were as superintendant and having to start over somewhere else back at the bottom, my wife and I seperating, gettin into a very self destructive phase that got me arrested and charged with a felony, just to name three "highlights" of the last 3 years. Have you ever known someone who all of a sudden fucked up real bad and you asked yourself something like, "What made them sink so low?" I have asked that of others and now of myself. And I can also answer that question. The answer is simple: it's easy with the right circumstance and no direction. Thank god my duaghter doesn't know of the arrest or jailtime ( a whopping 14 hrs. before posting bail). So I just take it one day at a time, hope for the best, and give the proverbial bird to the world when it tries to keep kicking me in the balls and keep me down.

Haven't had much time to take any pics. Scratch that, have had NO time. I see Reliq and Alucard are still going strong with deviations. I hope to visit here more often, I plan to, if anything to keep in touch with friends of old. I have fallen out of touch with all my friends online, and only keep up with one or two in the surreal world. I can't even contact my old friends via phone anymore as I dropped my cell pohone with all my friends contact info, thus can't call anyone anymore. So Brit and Austin, to name a couple, drop me a line.

It would be hard to sum up the last 3 years in one journal entry that didn't turn into one long rants of anger, sadness, and venom. So I will spare you readers the spewing forth on said words. But I am still alive and hope to get back in touch with old friends. Mayne I need to get on Twitter or Facebook. BUt everytime I go to join these, I say No. Afterall, I consider myself a nonconformistand do my best to do the opposite if what the rest of the world does. Fior example, I never joined MySpace.

Hmmm.... *Random thought of self discovery*

Maybe being a nonconformist is my prob. Fuck it. I don't mind being different.